Let There Be Light

(A collaboration with my good friend Aishwarya Nair. She interspersed my earlier poem, with a positivism that only she could muster. The words in italics are mine, the other hers.)

The leaves of memory seemed to make

A mournful rustling in the dark...

i wish the sun came out at night

of the darkness that frightens me

would creep away ashamed and silent

The barren branches and the boughs

stark reminders of the wind that blows...

the solitude that once was a blessing

is now a haunting...

i wish everyday was different

my melancholy would end

in the abrupt moment of time

for what solace lies in monotony

the end in sight as definite as it can be...

for once the light breaches the cloud...

and forever shall darkness secede...

i wish everyone was different

all the people i've known until

had just love in their hearts

try as you might..

the shards of time will pierce

the glorious day when disappears

into the sunset mists....

i wish the sea was calm

the troubles it cause,

the miseries and woes end it all

and the ripples fade into naught

the tide sweep away all thought

leave behind a single pearl of love

in abundance it shall be brought.....

Mirrored Mirage

I’m a thief
By means all I say not
I’m unimagined
I’m the dark in the white
The black in the light
I’m the hole in the gap
If I was right
Then why am I wrong?
Is in me then,
The cause of worry?
Across, afar
I come see a mirror
A presentiment abides
In what I see
I am a thief
I shall not know why.

mirza ghalib - lajawab or kya nahin

"Mat pooch ke kya haal hai mera tere peeche?
Tu dekh ke kya rang tera mere aage..."

Ask not what separation has done to me
You see your poise (composure) when I come before you...



"Dil hee to hai na sang-o-khisht, dard se bhar na aaye kyon?
royenge hum hazaar baar, koee hamein sataaye kyon?"

Heart it is, not a stone or brick
Why shouldn't it feel the pain?
Let none tyrannize/torment this heart
Or I shall cry and cry again....

I love you but i can't...

(sometimes the worst things in life can come at the least expected times... even death is not but a solace) Tess:

i kno wur ignorin me

u dont like me anymore

Tess:

u've got a new girl na?

Nishath:

who said that?

Tess:

i kno i know iknow

Nishath:

who said that i got a new gal?

Tess:

i know!!!!!!!!!

Nishath:

c'mon how can i even do that such a sweetheart?

Tess:

i know

coz im not good enuf...

Nishath:

are u trying to put baselses allegations upon me

Tess:

ur looin for other grls

Nishath:

where am i looing for other gals in?

c'mon now dont do this to me

after all these years

u want to end our relationship on a baseless piece of allegation?

i can't believe it tess

for all the trouble i am taking to come and meet u in mumbai

this is what i get

Tess:

u dont how bad those lonely yrs nishath

u were after money,,....n other grls...u forgot all the promises u made before mariiage

Nishath:

i was just trying to support you and your children

thats why i made money

and the girl part

Tess:

my chilsdren?

Nishath:

those were just rumours...

Tess:

now they r my children?

Nishath:

started off to make a rift between us

our children darling

our chidren...

Tess:

u were mad abt money u wanted only money n nothin else

Nishath:

more than anything i wanted u

and that is why i married u in the first place

i am planning to let go off everything just to be with u

Tess:

u completely ignored me wen u got the whiff of easy money

Nishath:

anything and everything

Tess:

ur lyin

Nishath:

tess let me tell u

Tess:

in know u are

Nishath:

money goes

money comes

right now i am so bankrupt

Tess:

glad u realized tgat

Nishath:

that it is ma friends who are helping me

they just want me to get out of here and come to u somehow

they know i love u that much

and u do the same back

Tess:

bankrupt? is tat y u bought that solitaire for suzie?

Nishath:

and that should suffice us for all these hardships

suzie's solitaire was just purchased by me

it was a gift from her husband

Tess:

who paid for it?

y did u purchase it>?

Nishath:

he just took me along to choose it

Tess:

the whole town is talkin abt u n her

Nishath:

he was bad at selection

i just help people

Tess:

n u never bothered to buy somethn for me

Nishath:

it is not my fault that ppl talk shit abt me behind ma back

i told u darling

i am leaving everything and coming back to u

Tess:

never came n sat wid me wen i really needed u

Nishath:

i will surely get u something

i am here for u whenever u want me

i am all yours

the only need for u is to utter a single word...

and i am there

Tess:

i dont want anythn

neither ur money or whtevr

its too late nishath

Nishath:

so u r seeing someone else huh?

i knew it

the moment u started the fight i knew it

i knew u wanted the divorce to happen

Tess:

no im not....do not even for a sec think im like u

Nishath:

all this drama just to get ma wealth

and u to run away with ur secret lover

i know u evil woman

Tess:

i cud have walked out any minut i wanted...but stayed coz i loved u.....

and hoped u'd come back

Nishath:

if u had loved me

u would be here with me

in my time of trouble

Tess:

i was thr....

Nishath:

but all u did was to allege me in having extra marital affairs

and all the bull

Tess:

ur accident...who took care of u?.......

Nishath:

why tess

why are u doing this to me

Tess:

u think i'll ever be able to love someone else?

Nishath:

dont u know how much i love u?

sorry tess

Tess:

u never showed it

Nishath:

i think it is time for me to leave

i think god is asking me to be with him

Tess:

sorry wont get a dead cat back to life

ur answerable to everythn i missed out on life

Nishath:

i think it's time i left the face of this world

no more shall i be a loser

Tess:

wat????

dont....

i love u nishath...

Nishath:

no more need i be of trouble to anyone

Tess:

cant live without u....

plz dont do somethn stupid

Nishath:

anything and everything that is mine is written on ur name

Tess:

i live for u

Nishath:

and the children

take care of them

Tess:

i dont want anythn...I WANT YOU

Nishath:

adieu my love...

adieu